Sittin' in the Rain, Water on Your Brain, Got a Hole in Your Boat

  That's  how I feel when I'm sick.  Do you remember that song?  I think it was a Michael W. Smith? (Wow I totally drew a blank on his name!) 
 
"Sittin' in the rain,
water on your brain,
gotta hole in your boat. 
Tryin to stay afloat,
has got you down. 

I’ve got a wind in my sail
Rubber boots and a pail
I’ll throw you a line
Rest assured that i
Won’t ever let you drown


Chorus:
’cause when you’re up against the wall
You know I’ll be here for you, for you
When you rise and when you fall
I’ll always be here for you, for you


When the plans you make
Fall through and take you
For a loop
Or some bird has flown the coop
And left you stranded
Just lean on me
And together you see
We’ll carry the load
Even if we don’t
Quite understand it



     I'm not really sinking, just feeling sorry for myself.  When I'm under the weather and not myself all the things I wanted to get done and can't bother me.  Like grocery shopping, my workout, lesson planning.  I just don't have the energy and I can't see through the cobwebs in my brain. 
      We're in survival mode here.  I make waffles, toast and ichaban to keep the children fed.  They do the dishes and whatever school they can without me.  Then they play games and watch movies the rest of the time.  Don't worry they are supervised.  I counted there are 4 here!  Ok that means one is missing but I remembered that he went to Oma's:)


    Hope you all are avoiding the annoying coughs, colds and flus.  I am going to take more Vitamin C and drink some tea.

Only Love Remains

  I think this song is amazing.  It's one of those ones I wish I wrote.  I am going write out the lyrics I just want to read them!  I understand if you want to just scroll down;)

Scenes of you come rushing through
You are breaking me down
So break me into pieces
That will grow in the ground

I'm interrupting for a minute.  This song is a pray, but it scares me to pray like that.  What will it feel like to be broken down?  I have on some level experienced a little brokenness.  Along with that I would also pray "Only that which comes through the Cross of Christ!"
I am not in anyway disagreeing with her.  I totally agree with her and wish I was brave enough to pray like that!  

I know I deserve to die
For the murder in my heart
So be gentle with me Jesus
As you tear me apart

AMEN!

Please kill the liar
Kill the thief in me
You know I'm tired of their cruelty
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains

Yes please Lord.

You burn away the ropes that bind
And hold me to the earth
The fire only leaves behind whatever is of worth
Love this line!
I begin to see reality
For the first time in my life
As much as I think I do, I have these moments where I really do. 
I know that I'm a shadow
But I'm dancing in Your light
AMEN!-
Teach me to be humble
Call me from the grave
Yes!
Show me how to walk with you upon the waves
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains